Leaving Hope
I'm drunk right now. But 10 days, 25 minutes and 38 seconds in, I'm calling it. 2010 sucks. So happy Valentine's Day and St. Patrick's Day. Happy Memorial Day and Labor Day and Fourth of July. A joyous 9/11neverforgetGodblessAmerica Day. Happy Thanksgiving and Hanukkah, Merry fucking Christmas and a Happy New Year. Now, let's be done with it.
Because I'm sure 2011 it will all be different.
We as people put a lot of emphasize on milestones. On changes and markers and self-created new beginning. New years, new millenniums and new decades. New days and new weeks, new months and moments. And it really is all a load of shit. It's the same as yesterday and the day before. Sure there is change, but we never achieve the drastic upheaval and renewal we say and hope will come. It's 2010 and the only thing different from 2009 is the number. It's the same war and death and disease and misery. We're still killing each other to impress invisible men in the sky, we're still slaughtering animals because we think they taste good, we're still raping the planet cause our Hummers and Escalades are so damn convenient and awesome looking. We still hate and destroy and kill and die and it goes on and fucking on. We make our resolutions and we fall short and leave them behind for dead, like a raccoon caught in the headlights and just not quick enough to save herself...beyond saving but still twitching. But we all know next time will be different and better and we'll round a corner and turn over a new leaf, get to the flip side of that coin and we'll be Good. We'll fix instead of break, save instead of ruin, put aside the pain to help alleviate the agony around us. After all, it is a new beginning. Things will be different.
Because I Can
I'm writing this post using the Wordpress application for iPhone right now. I got a 3GS recently and just can't stop using it for whatever excuse I can find. There is no real reason to be doing so but I can so I am. I've got to say, as skeptical as I was I love this phone. It's like having a little computer with me at all times and as a geek how can I not love that? The apps are awesome (though I am reluctant to actually pay money for any), the interface is slick and overall everything is intuitive and user friendly. I won't be turning into an Apple fanboy anytime soon, but this is easily the coolest toy I've bought in ages.
Stephen Colbert, Accidental Hacker
On tonight's episode of the Colbert Report, Stephen encouraged all of his viewers to edit him in to the Conservapedia's absolutely asinine project to rewrite the bible, removing the "liberal bias" from it. I would link that project here, but two hours later and the site is still giving a 503 Service Temporarily Unavailable message. Stephen Colbert, unleasher of the unintentional denial of service attack. I love it.
Even better, from Conservapedia's article on Stephen Colbert (still available on Google cache):
"Colbert has poked fun at Wikipedia and its apparent democratization of truth. He has coined the word "Wikiality" (as opposed to "reality,") and caused trouble for Wikipedia by suggesting that his listeners alter articles. In August of 2006, he encouraged users to state that the population of African elephants had tripled in the last decade. Colbert's point was that if enough people believe something, it becomes "the truth." Wikipedia responded by reverting and locking down the pages to prevent further vandalism."
I just had an awesome tofu cheesesteak, and it was nowhere near as delicious as the irony here. Thank you Stephen, for being awesome.
Doing good
I had orientation at Faithful Friends today, a no kill animal shelter that I will be (or I guess now officially am) volunteering at. I am so happy and psyched to be doing this. I don't feel like I've been doing much to benefit the world right now, and while helping take care of homeless dogs may be a relatively small thing, to me it feels huge and I am so glad that I am doing it. The people I've met so far seem extremely nice and the place overall just had a great vibe and energy. I've been in a bunch of shelters, and some just feel very sad and desperate and this is nothing like that. It made me feel even better about the whole thing. And I got to see Spanky again, an awesome pit/lab mix I met at an adoption event a few weeks ago.
I have another session of dog care specific training/orientation. Those are normally Wednesday evenings, but my work hours don't allow for that, so it will take some schedule adjusting to get that done. Hopefully it will be taken care of in the next week or two though and then I get to start helping. I can't wait!
You know who needs to be punched in the face?
Kirk Cameron. Seriously, he desperately needs to be punched in the face.
See? If people want to believe in silly things, that's fine. If they would like to ignore science and rational thought and things that actually have some sort of evidence, great. But when you decide to be a complete and utter jackass about it and try to portray yourself as persecuted because you believe stupid shit, that's where my tolerance ends. Because I don't care if you think that the sun revolves around the earth. But the second you start whining about the truth being taught and crying intolerance because the fairy tale you believe in isn't being presented as a wholly legitimate alternative, that is when you need to be punched. Preferably in the face.
I seriously wonder how much time, energy and material people like Kirk Cameron expect to be devoted to a completely unscientific theory such as Creationism. What do they want teachers to do or say about that? They want both "views"? Fine. "Some people say gawd did it all." Awesome, that's out of the way, now we can teach theories that actually have some scientific merit and are worth discussing. And when we're done we can all go punch Kirk Cameron. In the face.
The pains of being a pack rat
Jesus, what a mess. I've spent the past couple...well, months, really (off and on) gradually working my way through the mountain of paper and debris in the corner of my den. It's amazing how much crap I have saved under the misguided idea that I might one day need it. And I'd say something like 90% of it has vital personal info on it such as address, social security number, account numbers, etc. Almost a decade of loan documents, pay stubs and bills that I never needed to keep. All sitting in various states of organization, with no real purpose.
So now bit by bit, sheet by sheet it goes through the shredder, and slowly the mountain is becoming manageable. And I swear from now on anything I might need documented gets scanned and saved, and then it all goes right in to the burn pile. Because seriously, this sucks.
Justify your rage
The dust from the great 9-12 rallies of 2009 is still settling, as evidenced by the ongoing media coverage, blog coverage, discussion board coverage and all other sorts of inescapable coverage. And even though I've watched these people, and read the talking points and seen the websites and posts, I confess that I still do not understand. Maybe it's the incredibly disjointed expressions of discontent that come off as impotent "we hate Obama!" rage, although I suspect it has more to do with the fact that I am fairly rational, and not a xenophobic moron. Either way, I would love to understand.
All I am seeing is a completely irrational disconnect from reality, and if anyone reads this and can correct that perception please by all means, enlighten me.
I am hearing that the government is too invasive, from people who cheered for the Patriot Act. From people who applauded as Bush granted himself the power to declare martial law. From people who clapped when the term "enemy combatants" was created and it was written in to law that the president could declare at will that you were one and had no legal rights. But now is the threat to our privacy and civil rights?
I am hearing the government is spending too much money, from people who loved trillion dollar preventive war. I suspect that Bush could have unveiled a spending bill double the stimulus package back in October 2001 and as long as it was 90% military and "defense" these same so-called fiscal conservatives would have lauded it as a bold and necessary step for the future of our country.
I am hearing that we must question our leaders and all that they do from the people who less than a decade ago called the same thing un-American at best, treasonous at worst. Joe Wilson just got $1 million dollars from people who would have called for a Democratic congressman's head if he had cried out "You lie!" at Bush in 2002. And I do not mean that as a figure of speech-they would have been searching eBay for a guillotine.
I am watching the people who raged against the anti-war demonstrators of the Bush years now calling the anti-President demonstrators of the Obama months great America-loving patriots.
And I have to say, at the end of the day all I am really hearing are a whole lot of crazy rants and borderline racism. I am seeing nonsensical portrayals of Barack Obama as the Joker (what exactly does that have to do with Socialism again?). I am hearing the same batshit insane rants that I heard during the campaign about shadowy Muslim takeovers and unsubstantiated ravings from people who do not actually know what Marxism is. So please, someone...anyone. Negate the above listed hypocrisies and cognitive dissonance, and for the love of God, justify your rage.
A Moment of Silence
Before I start this poem, I'd like to ask you to join me
In a moment of silence
In honor of those who died in the World Trade Center and the
Pentagon last September 11th.
I would also like to ask you
To offer up a moment of silence
For all of those who have been harassed, imprisoned,
disappeared, tortured, raped, or killed in retaliation for those strikes,
For the victims in both Afghanistan and the U.S.
And if I could just add one more thing...
A full day of silence
For the tens of thousands of Palestinians who have died at the
hands of U.S.-backed Israeli
forces over decades of occupation.
Six months of silence for the million and-a-half Iraqi people,
mostly children, who have died of
malnourishment or starvation as a result of an 11-year U.S.
embargo against the country.
Before I begin this poem,
Two months of silence for the Blacks under Apartheid in South Africa,
Where homeland security made them aliens in their own country.
Nine months of silence for the dead in Hiroshima and Nagasaki,
Where death rained down and peeled back every layer of
concrete, steel, earth and skin
And the survivors went on as if alive.
A year of silence for the millions of dead in Vietnam - a people,
not a war - for those who
know a thing or two about the scent of burning fuel, their
relatives' bones buried in it, their babies born of it.
A year of silence for the dead in Cambodia and Laos, victims of
a secret war ... ssssshhhhh....
Say nothing ... we don't want them to learn that they are dead.
Two months of silence for the decades of dead in Colombia,
Whose names, like the corpses they once represented, have
piled up and slipped off our tongues.
Before I begin this poem.
An hour of silence for El Salvador ...
An afternoon of silence for Nicaragua ...
Two days of silence for the Guatemaltecos ...
None of whom ever knew a moment of peace in their living years.
45 seconds of silence for the 45 dead at Acteal, Chiapas
25 years of silence for the hundred million Africans who found
their graves far deeper in the ocean than any building could
poke into the sky.
There will be no DNA testing or dental records to identify their remains.
And for those who were strung and swung from the heights of
sycamore trees in the south, the north, the east, and the west...
100 years of silence...
For the hundreds of millions of indigenous peoples from this half
of right here,
Whose land and lives were stolen,
In postcard-perfect plots like Pine Ridge, Wounded Knee, Sand
Creek,
Fallen Timbers, or the Trail of Tears.
Names now reduced to innocuous magnetic poetry on the
refrigerator of our consciousness ...
So you want a moment of silence?
And we are all left speechless
Our tongues snatched from our mouths
Our eyes stapled shut
A moment of silence
And the poets have all been laid to rest
The drums disintegrating into dust.
Before I begin this poem,
You want a moment of silence
You mourn now as if the world will never be the same
And the rest of us hope to hell it won't be. Not like it always has
been.
Because this is not a 9/11 poem.
This is a 9/10 poem,
It is a 9/9 poem,
A 9/8 poem,
A 9/7 poem
This is a 1492 poem.
This is a poem about what causes poems like this to be written.
And if this is a 9/11 poem, then:
This is a September 11th poem for Chile, 1971.
This is a September 12th poem for Steven Biko in South Africa,
1977.
This is a September 13th poem for the brothers at Attica Prison,
New York, 1971.
This is a September 14th poem for Somalia, 1992.
This is a poem for every date that falls to the ground in ashes
This is a poem for the 110 stories that were never told
The 110 stories that history chose not to write in textbooks
The 110 stories that CNN, BBC, The New York Times, and
Newsweek ignored.
This is a poem for interrupting this program.
And still you want a moment of silence for your dead?
We could give you lifetimes of empty:
The unmarked graves
The lost languages
The uprooted trees and histories
The dead stares on the faces of nameless children
Before I start this poem we could be silent forever
Or just long enough to hunger,
For the dust to bury us
And you would still ask us
For more of our silence.
If you want a moment of silence
Then stop the oil pumps
Turn off the engines and the televisions
Sink the cruise ships
Crash the stock markets
Unplug the marquee lights,
Delete the instant messages,
Derail the trains, the light rail transit.
If you want a moment of silence, put a brick through the window
of Taco Bell,
And pay the workers for wages lost.
Tear down the liquor stores,
The townhouses, the White Houses, the jailhouses, the
Penthouses and the Playboys.
If you want a moment of silence,
Then take it
On Super Bowl Sunday,
The Fourth of July
During Dayton's 13 hour sale
Or the next time your white guilt fills the room where my beautiful
people have gathered.
You want a moment of silence
Then take it NOW,
Before this poem begins.
Here, in the echo of my voice,
In the pause between goosesteps of the second hand,
In the space between bodies in embrace,
Here is your silence.
Take it.
But take it all...Don't cut in line.
Let your silence begin at the beginning of crime. But we,
Tonight we will keep right on singing...For our dead.
EMMANUEL ORTIZ, 11 Sep 2002.
Valley Forge Memorial
From our spring trip to Valley Forge. And testing flickr/WP API link.





